Egos can be dangerous to your mental health
- NaQuita Journey
- Aug 13, 2020
- 2 min read
Updated: Aug 17, 2020
Dear Diary I had to kill her.
She was apart of me I had to get rid of. Was a demonic spirit controlling me and of course the world loved her. For the goal was to please and mislead the world.
1 John 2:15-17 15 Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 16 For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. 17 And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever.
No Ego SkiiLo
(Mental cleansing time) Written March 21, 2017
Where do I begin and how do I end.
You been down with me since high school thinking you was my ride or die, my friend.
When it turned out all you were doing was draining me.
So focused on faming me.
Would you had let me sell out? Been waiting for you to yell out the right route.
Where do I go from here.
I put all my trust in you and left the fear.
Just knew you would take me to the top. Just knew those innovative moments would
pop. Just knew once them dollars start coming they won’t stop.
Just knew you and I would have every city on lock.
That was the plans right?
Had everything in plain sight.
I turned to you at late nights.
When I wanted to escape those darkest moments you were my light.
I play it off like everything was alright.
Hit the club drink it off and get high.
You were my escape, from all the problems all the pain. To keep me sane.
I can't explain bout how you made me feel but was it real?
Because when I look at life now all I have is a bunch of bottled up untouched issues.
All cried out of tears no more need for tissue.
Just want a ear to hear me out and I cant even use you.
Cant even turn to you Like I use to.
Now that I think about it you was never there for me.
Only wanted to be the life of the party.
You became my attitude and blame for being rude.
My trouble ways was because of you. I was confused.
All about money with a cold heart.
Thought you knew everything couldn't be taught.
I lost myself in you.
Now that im getting back to me, I have to stay true.
Have to let my ego go.
Say goodbye to SkiiLo
Hello again NaQuita!
Freedom feels good when you can think clearly and hear Gods guidance on life.
When I wrote that piece of letting my Ego go years ago, I was at a breaking point very confused in life. Part of me praying to hear from God but I never realized this Ego I was proud to claim was really clouding and controlling my thoughts which was why I couldn't hear God. I didn't have peace in my life.
Free yourself Be yourself
Who God made you to be.
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